As shared a few weeks ago (maybe a months now) I had oral surgery which I had been putting off for a very long time. It got to the point where antibiotics/pain meds were not even touching the pain. Two molars had to be extracted. I was however on antibiotics and vicodin for 2 weeks in an attempt to alleviate the pain. During that time I lived off of smoothies. I remained on pain meds and a different antibiotic for 10 days following my surgery.
Unfortunately the change in my diet really threw me off balance. The natural sugar from the smoothies, occasional ice cream and pudding.
Clearly I was unprepared. I began craving sugar and carbs again and have been off plan for a while now.
The worst part was how my depression and anxiety returned full on.
Both depression and anxiety will creep up on you and before you know it you find yourself spiraling down at the speed of light.
When I get in this place I shut just about everyone out and go into hiding, focusing all of my energy on caring for my son, I have little else to give beyond that.
I will be starting a 10 day cleanse/detox today that consists of fruit and green vegetable smoothies. And I also started taking two specific nootropic supplements; Genius Joy, and Genius Consciousness. Both are supposed to help tremendously with mood and receive excellent reviews. I am on day three and do feel as if the fog has lifted a bit. Oh, did I mention that I also struggle with ADD? Yep, i spent 5 years on Adderall to help treat it, but stopped a year ago, as the 30 mg. I was prescribed no longer worked and I found myself experiencing many awful side effects, including an increase in my blood pressure.
Mostly I am posting because depression can be such an isolating and debilitating illness. It is as if there is a voice in your head reminding you of all of your failures, insecurities and flaws that never shuts up! Anxiety on the other hand points out all the potential problens and disasters that ‘may’ present themselves in the future.
One thing I know with absolute certainty is that diet affects my mood, and when I consume sugar, and too many carbs I start spiraling downwards.
My chronic sinusitis has flared up big time, while it was under control for 6 months, especially when I cut sugar, wheat and dairy out of my diet and kept my carb intake to under 20.
So, this is me at bottom. A reminder that I alone am responsible for my health and well being. I am free to make whatever choices I want, but there will be consequences for those choices.
So…the cleanse begins today, and hopefully by next Saturday’s post I will be back to feeling happy, healthy and energized. Until then, keeping it real as always.